Lost Again

Dear Traveller,

I just felt like I had to write this. Someone is reading this. Someone will need these words. Please read this message:

“A metamorphosis is underway. I will bring the change I’ve promised, first little by little and then an outward manifestation of an inner working I have been doing in My people. That metamorphosis will spill out from the spirits of My people into the spheres they influence in the seven mountains.

“Transformed business leaders will see their companies as ministry hubs. Transformed politicians will see their cities as congregations. Transformed cities will see mass salvations. I am calling those who have struggled in past seasons to make one more push because that last push will birth something in you and through you like the world has never seen and like nothing you could even imagine.

“I have allowed you to go through struggles—through suffering—so that I could use you as a compassionate change agent in the earth. You have authority. You have influence. You have power. You have an anointing. I intend to use you to comfort those who face disaster and to strengthen the weak. I intend to use you to lift others up, even those who dragged you down.

“You have been changed and are changing from glory to glory. The glory that rested upon you during the struggle is increasing as you step into the assignment I am giving you to see transformation all around you. You carry the kingdom. Release the kingdom into atmospheres around you and watch the darkness flee as the brilliance of My love works through you by faith. Have a confidence that I have called you, I have equipped you and I am sending you—and that I am with you always.”

From https://www.charismanews.com/opinion/68812-prophecy-for-2018-metamorphosis-radical-change-is-coming

When I finished reading this article, I felt the presence of God near me, stilling me and willing me to meditate and pray.

God wanted me to see this message. He has seen that I’ve been losing hope. I’ve been discouraged. and He wanted to give me hope and encourage me. God is doing a new thing in my life. I won’t give up. I can’t give up.

Up to now I have been increasingly feeling so lost and aimless in my life. Pursuing my University degree did not go as I would have liked. I did not do well, I failed what I always thought I should be doing in the eyes of others. I have a few ideas now, but I’m not so sure.

I’ve pondered going into music and writing. These are the two things I love and keep going back to. But I do not know where they will take me. It’s the pride of knowing that holds me back–that which I thought I knew is nothing at all.

God has been directing me here and now. My finances has nearly been run into the ground, I am now about 2 months behind on my electric and credit card bills and NOW I owe an expense for a waitress/management school training for which I have a tight deadline to pay back…And I hate asking people for money. I wish they could wait until I get my next paycheck. I have begun to start focusing on my joined degree but I feel as though I do not want to stay long. Already the first week of school and I can’t stand going. I just want to give it up now and go to trade school.

But I sense that God is leading me to continue where I am until he calls me somewhere else and interrupts, or disrupts if you will.

For those of you who are feeling like you don’t know where to begin, this is for you. For those of you who feel lost I’m writing to you saying that I don’t have it all together. In fact, I don’t know what I’m doing. But I’m following God. I’m trying to stay close to God through Jesus in Prayer in meditation and In the word. And when it becomes clear, best believe I’ll be one of those saints who be marching in!


I had a dream last night that I was playing music to a dear friend, singing, “Your freedom is here, yeah!” and It was so beautiful (The original song is freedom is here by hillsong, but in a more heavenly rendition). I was playing guitar so beautifully. Not like I do now. I’m such a beginner. And as someone else joined me in singing, I kicked it into harmony. I think it must have been an angel singing with me. It was beautiful. My friend was moved to tears. 

I realise that I already wrote a post about feeling lost (read it here)and I said the same thing: I loved music and writing. Just expressing my soul through creative arts. Except for a closer relationship with God through Jesus, that hasn’t changed. So…why am I going around in circles? Maybe this is what I’m called to do that I am running from. To Inspire. To be inspired through my music and writing. To be the catalyst for lasting changes. To set people free. To Liberate and educate. To tell them they are free. What if I don’t need a title to do that? What if I can do it right now?

I have so many platforms. This age has given us so many tools to work with. Youtube, WordPress, Facebook, etc.

What do you have at your disposal right now that God can use to touch everyone around you? As I’m writing this the answer is coming to me. The answer is not so far at all.

May the Sun kiss you after the rain hits you,


Peace lillian<3


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